You know that feeling when you want to write but you don’t know what to write?
That comes to me this days. I miss that time when I can write to 10 pages a day. That words, that sentences just comes from my head through my fingers smoothly. Well, I used to write in Bahasa. But now it feels awkward to write using formal language. And when I want to write in English I got stuck on my vocabulary. Fyuu~
Should I just writing in Bahasa despite the awkwardness I feel?
I had too much things on my head that so complicated to write. I start with the titles, and … nothing. I couldn’t write it. So sad 😦
He.. who once filled my heart with love
How we used to be so close, I can’t even remember how. It just happened like it has to be. With him for the first time I feel being loved and loving someone.
Dia yang sebenarnya sudah lama berada disekitarku, tiba-tiba masuk ke kehidupanku. Menjadi bagian dari hidupku, bagian dari hari-hari ku, bagian dari hatiku. For over than 2 years, I have never feel his existence. And suddenly my days becomes his. My days full of him. No day passed without him.
Kumulai hari ku dengan menyalakan komputer dan mengaktifkan aplikasi chatting ku. Aku bisa menghabiskan waktu berjam-jam duduk di depan komputer dan chatting hanya dengannya. Seharian bersama headset Bercerita hal yang terkadang sama sekali tidak penting, talking non-sense.
My days passed feeling the happiness. Is he my boy? Nope. We never state anything to our stats. In South Korea, they called it ‘some’. Just having a ‘something’ between us without any exact status. It was fun. But it was not last long.
Well, learning something here. Having relationship without commitment just wasted your time.
Anyway, you. Yes, You. The one who made me fluttering even just hearing your voice. The one who is willing tell the truth that this relationship will never work. The one who gave me a precious memories.